Using money owes me to control
Using money owes me to control
About 2 weeks ago my narc sent me a text asking if he could call me because his wife and kids weren't home and he "loved me and wanted me."
After taking his call I was so ashamed because I knew he was using me to "play" over the phone. I was his free whore.
So I sent him an email, that wouldene my 20th+ last email because I'm so pathetic. The email was different. It wasn't an attack but I did paint a true picture of our relationship. I was very calm and sad, so I felt the email was very accurate and fair. I carefully chose my words knowing that if I didn't I would pay.
Two days later he sent me a text saying "Why do you flip out on me? Why do you want to hurt me? Why do you attack me?"
I then replied and answered each question....very carefully. It was short and sweet. Because of the time change he would not get it until the morning. In the morning he sent me, attacked me again. For no reason. My email to him was how I felt and I wrote specific situations to why I felt a certain way.
He replied, "it's all on your head, you create drama and those situations are in your head. You need help. Leave me alone."
I replied that I would and to pay me back my money by tomorrow and we'd be done, we wouldn't have anything tying us together.
He then started....first it was " I will pay you when I want to. Beat it Bitch.
(Then I become this crazy person whenever he makes no sense!) I replied that he was to pay me in the morning otherwise would forward the email he sent me asking for the money, to his wife. The he said for that I will pay you $10 a week for two years. Then I made a comment about what a fake he was, then it became $5 for 4 years. " We'll be stuck to each for 4 years, but there will be no contact between us except for the deposits, you"ll think about me everyday." (this went back and forth for an entire day. Then he said, " let's stop now, hon."
And (this is embarrassing) he sent me videos I made him and said he was watching them and was turned on. It was so weird. He had said horrible things to me.
I think he gets meaner and and more controlling because it turns him on.
So that night I came here and read a great article about psychopaths. Wow, it was him. Two things that really struck a cord because I did think it was in my head...
1. The part about the sexual requests.
2. The treatment got worse....the fight were incredible and half the time i didnt even know why we were fighting and it will never go back to what it was at the beginning. Maybe for one second if he needed supply.
So, I sent him an email and said, "you win, keep the money. It isn't worth the fighting. I also
decided ( another last email....)but it was friendly but real. I decided not to put blame on anyone, complimented him at times. ( I'm crazy...I know.) but I wrote about how we both become so angry and mean that it wasn't healthy and it was over. That it wasn't fun anymore and that was why we were in the affair in the first place. Why do I even bother?
Do you think he borrowed the money as a game for control. I actually believe so.
Today will be day 2, and he hasnt responded. But that is typical.
I hope I can really stay NC. It's so hard. Especially because I want to know what he is thinking.
No response! It's been two days and I'm dying.
You don't need the $
He took the money because he
Hopeful36
I second what Sparrow said
You are correct. I need to be
By getting I mean
Hopeful, you did the right thing
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Spinning, thank you. I am
Dear Hopeful, thank you
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He didn't borrow money, he