The WHAT IF's?

Hello Everybody!

Today, as I was driving home from homework, I started thinking about the what if's? What if I was my best friend, L, who is a strong woman, how would she move forward from this situation? What if it was my other good friend T, what would she do in this situation? Or, what if this was my friend S, how she would handle this situation? Well, they would cut their loses and move on with their life. My best friend would focus herself on her current (tough) academic Master's program, while my friend T will probably cry here and there but will concentrate on her online Master's program (and cooking), and my friend S will just say F U--I WILL MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE and REMOVE YOU FROM MY UNIVERSE?

So, what if it was me, the strong me before I got NARC'd? How would I deal with this type of situation? I would have cried, get hurt, but I will tell myself, I will survive, I will thrive. I will devote most of this time to get to a healthy weight, excel in my job, continue to cultivate meaningful friendships, develop new hobbies, watch movies, travel and etc...

What if I pretend that I got treated really bad by somebody who has created expectations (but unable to deliver), have me wait around ("it's like a stock..." Narc), "cheated" on me, made me feel stupid of wanting to be in a relationship with him, reeled me back when I am pulling away but starts doing his own thing again once he knows I am safely back in his nest, made me feel bad for just wanting to be loved, too, used me, does not appreciate me ...the list goes on and on...OH WAIT! HE REALLY DID ALL THOSE THINGS!!! He is that A@#HOLE!!!

I've been having a bad few days, and today is one of my good ones. I WANT TO SHARE IT, TOO!!!

Xoxoxoxoxox to everybody here!