What l learned from my prison sentence w narchole

I want to take this experience and look at it for the positives it has brought me rather than all the glaring negatives(and there are quite a few!). So, here is my list of positives:

1. I learned to seriously trust my instincts. I knew from the start that he was a player and wanted to manipulate me into sex w him. I fell so hard for him that I couldn't think straight. Cognitively, I knew it....emotionally, I was in denial and didn't care.
2. Actions speak louder than words. Whoa, I wish I had paid attention to the massive discrepancy between his actions and words. He would say he misses me but refuse to see me. Hello!!! This makes NO sense, LIAR!
3. Lust does not always turn into love. With a narc, it leads to boredom. They cannot love. They can only feel lust/infatuation. They think that this is love bc they don't know any better. My passion turned into love....his never did & it hurts like hell.
4. People who charm the pants off of u almost immediately are dangerous. Need I say more??? I was so charmed that I lost my ability to think rationally & that is never a good thing!
5. Letting go is a process. I couldn't just let go bc I knew he was a narcissist. It wasn't enough. I needed proof over and over again that there was ZERO hope of him changing back to "pretend guy". I battled with myself over letting him go and staying in pathological hope. I literally could not stand myself bc of this. I trapped myself.
6. Anxiety will not kill u. I had some pretty severe anxiety. I learned that it passes. Thank Gd! Being around good friends helps!
7. I am a survivor & am strong enough to move beyond this trauma & learn to live again, narc free. I am going to have some bad moments but I will get through them bc I want to feel better. Thank u all for your support. It has helped me tremendously!!!!!