What might you think?
What might you think?
This is a little off-topic so I apologize. Just would like some feedback.
I have been separated from N husband for 2 and 1/2 years, Divorce is almost final. Took so long because of Him....but that's another story....
About 18 months after separation I had my first date in 23 years. I have had others, but basically, I have lived with this man for about 1 year, with some times apart due to different interests, not due to conflict.
So....he seems so sweet: unassuming, frugal, introverted and careful with his words and emotions. After 6 months we both said we loved eachother. The thing I struggle with is that, while I do not think he is an N, (off topic!), he is not very affectionate at all. Never pats my arm or leg, never says he loves me out of the blue, and when he is gone, often does not call. But then, he does at times. The other night I had a terrible time going through my divorce B.S. and he calls. Never asks how I'm doing. I ask All the questions and of course they are about him and what he's been doing, etc. When I hung up I realized I was really angry that he never asks ME what I'm feeling or how I am doing, in spite of knowing that I am going through a difficult time in the final phase of divorce. So I called him back and said that. He was amazed. "OF course I ask you that". NO.
Next night I'm hoping he will call because I told him what a hard time I was having and maybe he would want to check in on me? No. No call. So I get angry again, call and leave a stupid message, like "I was really hoping you would call tonight since I told you what a hard time I was having. Maybe you just aren't really that into me."
Felt horrible the next morning because I sounded needy and critical. On the Other Hand....I wonder if this is exactly what needs to happen. I need to be honest and express my feelings, even if negative. Of course, I've heard nothing back and feel fairly sure he will expect me to apologize, which I am not going to do. It's so hard in the beginning of a relationship. He is so different from me and often I think I just need to accept that: that he IS different and I should be less judgemental and distrusting and that those traits come as a result of my prior 23 marriage to an N. Ok.....just wondering, honestly, am I being too demanding or judgemental? Thanks, CM
Cassiemay
cassiemay
the red flags
Well...he sounds
Thank you
better off
listen to your gut CM
All you wonderful Ladies