You took the words right out of my mouth.....

Everyone says teh exact same thing on here and it's amazing to me that we were all duped and fooled by these non humans. Was it me? Was I unreasonable, over emotional, needy, clingy, crazy, insane? Did I really have too high expectations? He always said I wasn't letting him just be who he is....and on top of that he has my family and friends questioning MY sanity....they don't get it, and that's my fault because I lived the lies. I pretended it was all ok for the sake of my children. (He isn't their birth father) but he was the only "dad" they have known....and they wanted a "dad" so bad so I lived the lie. I was so ashamed of all the shit and I didn't admit it to anyone...I just lived the lie for four loooooong years and now I am left empty and broken. My kids and I go to counseling but I know they, too, think I took this "dad" away from them. He had them convinced too it was my fault and I am mean and crazy and unreasonable....I don't even know how or where to start to pick up the pieces....I hate him and I hate what he has turned me into. Don't even know who or what or where I am anymore. I am starting from absolute scratch...nothing left of me. Not only emotionally but financially, and material stuff. When we moved in with him..."lets start "our" new life together"...that's what I was told...he literally made me get rid of all my furniture except kids bedroom stuff...he said there was no room for my stuff and we'd start getting stuff together. So when I finally moved out...that's right all he would allow me to take was the kids bedroom furniture...no kitchen table and chairs...no couches etc....This mand has ruined me. This man has taken my life, my soul, my confidence, my sanity, all I am left with is NOTHING!