The silence is broken

for getting this far! Nine days and a text by mistake is great work on your part. I know how hard it is. I wish you wouldn't read the cards or the texts because they help keep you in the fog. That's what they're designed to do. But if you must read them at least you can bear in mind that they are just "pretty words" and they are cheap. You must look at the ACTIONS and not the WORDS. This guy's actions are that he has a wife and a girlfriend and then another girlfriend and no matter what he "SAYS" to you. Roey, I don't know what to tell you except that it's a hard, hard process to go through to realize that you DESERVE someone who can be with you 100 percent, not 70 or 50 or whatever. The more you can let go of this situation, the more room will open up to the possibilities of meeting someone honest, fun, and non-disordered. I say this because I know. It's so hard to let go of something you "thought" was "everything" except when you start really looking at it it's really ALL ABOUT HIM and that's a hard pill to swallow. But since I've been out (almost 10 months), fantastic things have happened. I'm 53, Roey, and I have met interesting, fun, HOT men and done some very fun and new things. It's so nice not being twisted up in knots in a disordered relationship. My alone time is so much better and then it's supplemented by nice people, good natured fun and friends! It can happen for you, too. Well, Roey, I hope this helps a bit. You are doing very well, truly, even if it doesn't feel like it. Keep pressing ahead and sharing here. You will find the strength and clarity you are searching for because you want it. Most sincerely (fighting to never again start) spinning. IT'S A CHOICE AND I CHOOSE MYSELF.