It hurts because he DOESN'T want me
It hurts because he DOESN'T want me
I know this sounds whacky to say, however he was the one who went NC on me, rather than me doing so to him.
I did nothing wrong to him.
He text messaged me a "how are you" on the forth of July. However, i feel that was probably just a bored moment. I need MORE. I need him to come after me with all the desparation he used to so i can squash him!
The week before he broke it off he was always giving excuses as to why he was not available. ALWAYS having guy time that week-- this is a man with basically no friends. I knew he was cheating.
Instead of me doing the leaving it was him.
I got devalued and discarded. "Jessika, you are just too negative! I want to have fun in my life and you obviously just want to scrutinize me. I don't have to put up with that. Please don't try to tell me you well change. It is a personality flaw and will never change. Bye."
I didn't do anything wrong!!! Where is his punishment?
I still look at my inbox hoping i will see an email from him. I find myself looking at it several times a day. When i get a text message i am praying it is from him. I dont want to reconcile... i just want to have the ability to ignore him.
The way things were left it is as though i am the crazy, loser woman and he had to move on to another girl worthy of his love. I dont want him wallking away with that thought. I want his relationship now to be going badly and hence he will want me back. HOwever i will show him that he messed up and cant have me--- get some justice.
There is no justice for me.
His ex probably felt the same way when she saw him with me. He just leaves woman after woman... telling her she is unworthy and a piece of shit and because there is overlap with all of us he is NEVER without our replacement. As a matter of fact, I think my N had us scheduled on different days... I was Saturday. However our last month together, I had lost that day.
How to get over this?!?!? I NOW want retaliation... i want him to suffer and pay!
What happended to my sweet little life. Im not funny, happy, loving anymore. When i meet new people now i am engaged in an inner dialogue about their character and feel they are fake.
I know how this feels but...
the one thing i found is
It is harder when he pretends again (that he wants you)
I could have written just
Same with me. After putting
NanC
I feel your pain
I hate that I am jealous of
Jealousy
NanC
NanC
I just spoke to his cousin
Agree
stop that! who cares??????
Pain
but you were!
PIGS-all of them!!
It hurts because he DOESN'T want me
Funny Movie
Jessika
OMG Jessika, I have been
waiting for a text message?
be grateful
you are probably getting healthier....
I'm finding myself doing the
You are not insane
moving on
Eventually....
We're goin to court next
He has to