I just wont be that person
I just wont be that person
I'm beginning to fully understand what's been done to me. What I survived, what I put up with and what I tolerated. I read a blog about being a perfectionist and being real today. A 12 year old boy committed suicide because he was so ashamed that he masturbated and felt he could not live with himself. No one thought enough to just hug him and make him feel ok. Know what? It slayed me. OK, I loved a bad man. He abused me and hurt me and preyed on my kindness. I HATED how that made me feel. But I am beautiful and my heart, my grace is that no matter what he did that I forgive him. Because I have been that ugly. Felt that ugly. And I just don't want to be. I would rather go to my grave knowing I gave too much of my heart than feeling like I shut it off because someone did an injustice to me. I prayed so hard today because I hurt so much. I realized that the one thing I will not give up is the beauty of me. I am wonderful and giving and kind. I do not care that he didnt really love me. It brought me more peace than I've ever felt. I didnt need him to love me because I finally knew what he took advantage of.
Since Friday
yay!
Good for you Epiphany!
The way they make you feel is
beautiful.