Being pushed over the edge
Being pushed over the edge
He is fast succeeding in driving me over the brink of insanity....on top of all the emotional upheavel im dealing with in my life right now....after finally making the escape back to my parents....the tears hardly ever stop....first few days I heard nothing from him, then he was wanting to know what he could do to help work it out....I told him I needed time distance to come to grips with my life right now.....that I wasnt in a good place mentally to make any sort of decisions...he said ok, he would let me have time to deal with things....next day he was distancing himself again....ready for me to be out of his life completely...several days of back and forward....then today....he sent me a text message about how the whole dam world had gone crazy...of course that made me wonder what he was talking about.....then later tonight he sent another text message about how all of his family had betrayed him, how selfish everyone was, but he was going to put a end to that tonight......of course I knew what he was talking about....everytime he got in a mood he would threaten to kill himself.
So what do I do, I pick up phone and call him.....he goes on and on about how everything ends tonight....he got a bottle of booze and he has his pistol and at midnight he is going to kill himself.....then everyone will be sorry about how we treated him, and he will be free of all the people that have set out to destroy him his whole life.....There I am on the phone telling him how much I love him, because I do and probably always will....I know he is sitting there waiting for me to say, dont do it, I will leave right now and drive back there....I couldnt say that.....and now if he does kill himself I will have to live with that the rest of my life....carry another burden that its my fault and I could have stopped him in some way....when the whole time I figure its just another one of his sick demented mind games....but my god what if it isnt and I didnt stop him.....how the hell will I ever be able to carry that burden. I feel as if he is driving me over the edge of insanity and im helpless to stop him. Im about to do something stupid myself so this insanity will go away.
Mine threatened the same
Please just take care of
I didn't
You said, " I feel as if he
LOL mine never drove
off the bus
Whysky
Thank you
Whsky
Hunter
Yes it was
whiskeywmn5
forgive me for saying this
Slow suicide
Carrying that burden
the N making suicide threats
Thanks ladies
wsky, this is
spinning
whyskywmn
Very sick
How often does he behave like
When I was there, he would
He sounds bipolar/paranoid
Not sure