Narcisstic Rage?
Narcisstic Rage?
Thanks to everyone for your both your support and encouragement as I am trying to move forward with my recovery. Once the OW woman & I compared notes and recognized we were both dealing with a N, we shared a lot of stories, texts, etc. She walked away and never looked back but told me of a situation that had occurred between them. He is a very brilliant writer and his texts & e-mails all have an incredibly seductive tone. Following an D&D with her he tried to resume the relationship and she told him she was sick of his behavior and his FUCKING POETIC BULLSHIT! They of course, returned to one another, and later joked together about what she coined as "FPBS". I have been continually trying to figure out this man. I decided to ask him what FPBS stood for. Here are his responses:
"Fucking Poetic Bullshit. Why, for gods sake are you reading all that? It’s done. Over. Please , stop torturing yourself. That cunt! I swear, that’s one person that I would love to kill!" I did not respond-
His next text was: "No response to my animosity towards her? You must know that I’ve killed. Never talked about it and am haunted by the thoughts, but she would be the exception. I’m sorry. I’m not a good person.
But do you see that I have? Do you see what she’s done? She’s rubbed salt, dirt and mud into our wound. I’m sorry but she crossed the threshold of being a decent, compassionate human. She wanted to hurt you and she succeeded with flying colors.
Don’t be scared. I’m not going to harm anyone. I’ve done enough damage to so many people-you, my wife, my enemies- all I want is peace. And it’s only with you that I’ve found it. Do you understand that, Its only you that matters to me. You."
Lastly he wrote-
"Not Pleasant. As my Doug (his therapist) would say, I’ve repressed my emotions. But that doesn’t make me a nut, I’ve just internalized it. What do you make of all of this psychobabble? Internalize, compartmentalize, suppress, ya da ya da! Is it just bullshit?
People do things in their lives, good or bad, and they have to live with their choices and move on. Is that too simple a philosophy? Do you know that you are my best friend?"
Is this what is refereed to as Narcissistic rage? He was most often very gentle but the more I think about it, the more times I can remember that he reacted so angrily and inappropriately at the most benign issues...
Oh God.. I'm reliving narc #
Maggs, this guy is pure
spinning
Just to add...I love how he
Such a wonderful analysis -
Maggster
doesn't surprize me