Well, I proved to be the idiot

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#1 Sep 8 - 9AM
imok123
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Well, I proved to be the idiot

I honestly thought I could contact her. Even after I read all the posts, and blogs, and advice. She contacted me back, then when she got uncomfortable she stopped. It was all on her terms, and that chaps me. It's like they will never let you go out on your terms....it truly is all about them. I finally just told her that it's fine...I will be ok and that I am in a good place mentally and emotionally. (I know that's a line of bull, but it is getting better, and who cares what she believes anyway?) I just ended it on my terms..Or what I feel are my terms. I know she read the text. I just feel dumb right now for thinking I could do this. I am going back to NC, and this time..no matter how good I feel. I know for a fact that this feels like crap, and I don't want to feel this way any longer. Ugh! Moment of weakness, and that is exactly what it was...a moment. I am not feeding the monster anymore. It eats you alive.

Sep 12 - 11AM
imok123
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Dang it!!!

Sep 12 - 12PM (Reply to #14)
Costa
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Forget it

Sep 12 - 12PM (Reply to #15)
femnarc
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hoovering worked...sorta

Sep 8 - 12PM
florence (not verified)
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Your last line

Sep 8 - 10AM
femnarc
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thanks for sharing

Sep 8 - 11AM (Reply to #9)
imok123
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Loose Ends

Sep 8 - 11AM (Reply to #10)
femnarc
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probably so

Sep 8 - 6PM (Reply to #11)
Done sourcing
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Tying up loose ends with

Sep 8 - 10AM
imok123
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Pain

Sep 8 - 10AM (Reply to #7)
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Imok123

Sep 8 - 11AM (Reply to #4)
imok123
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text

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femnarc
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I'm fascinated by the

Sep 8 - 11AM (Reply to #6)
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Boring

Sep 8 - 10AM
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NC

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Imok123