do they really know what they are doing? mine N just revealed things after a year that make me feel dead inside...
do they really know what they are doing? mine N just revealed things after a year that make me feel dead inside...
basically he told me in an e-mail that he dumped me for my own good and that he will always love me but that he would never be good enough for me. he revealed that he 'also ruined' his ex-girlfriends life. he told me that he knows he's a 'bad person' and that's *also* why he had to 'get rid of me'... because i just 'remind him of what a bad person' he is, but that after i am 'out of his life,' he will forget it from then on. he just warned me to stay away from 'assholes and con artists' like himself.
so... from his perspective, he can't be with me because i no longer hold up the mirror to show him what he *wants* to see, but what is actually there!
or maybe it's all just a bunch of martyr bs.
f*ck him.
either way, i am confused and angry. still not responding to him. but i just wonder how many lies. how many lies. is he a sociopath? i finally found out why he was kicked out of college... i finally found out that he cheated on his ex... all this from his sister who consoles me, telling me, "honey, i would never date my brother." i never would have talked to her (or virtually anyone else for that matter) because he always used to tell me that talking to others about "our relationship" was "disrespectful" of him...
god. he had me so brainwashed and under control.
i just don't know what's real anymore. that's the biggest trouble of mine. what happened. what is real. i don't even KNOW if he is an 'actual' N or S ... i just don't that all this stuff i read resonates with me like crazy, that my therapist suggested he had N tendencies, and that, while i was in denial, my good friend insisted that he was a narcissistic sociopath... i so didn't want to believe that. i still don't. it would make me feel so... paranoid of the world.
how do you tell? how do you tell what is real from what isn't? how can i reduce everything he says to garbage when it seems that's the only option i have?
even though the people close to me tell me i should be focusing on myself and getting better, i still can't help but continue to try to psychoanalyze the f*cker... anyone else do this? it's like how can who he seemed to be be reconciled with the actual sh*t he said and did.
"actions speak louder than words". my "N" was certainly a speech maker. big talker. almost politician-like.
i feel so foolish.
There's no one else like them
helldweller
before i read any other replies
yes!!...i believe they know exactly what they're doing......
exactly
reveal
littlestbird
Aceonelady
Yes they are
This is why I'm here
"It's not a natural breakup"
sociopath/narcasist
pegasus269
Pegasas269
the scale runs in ONE DIRECTION only
Don't feel foolish
Unconditional love
apologies for the harsh
Littlebird
Mine said similar things
Hang in there It makes me
they know
You Bet They KNOW !!!
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Holy sh*t, that's scary! Can
no...
Ahhhhhh, maaaaannnn. :)
I know
dangerous
Barbara and betteroff are
Well since I posted it,