But I meant it in a general sense...HIS conditions were that we consistently sweep things under the rug so that they could simmer to a slow cook the way lentils do in a pressure cooker!
..that's why my xN was so obsessed with his dog.
anytime I brought up a topic to discuss- I got "what does that have to do with the price of tea in China".
So fustrating.
I am sorry if that hurt you but that is how I feel
I am selfish & shallow
I am ruthless and cold
I know this is not what you want to hear
I am never going to change
Don't cry
It is always drama with you & me
Sensitivity is not my strong suit.
Everyone is out for themselves
I am not sure I have a soul
I tried not to hurt anyone but if that's how you took it then I don't know what to say
I don't understand people who ( help, are compassionate, etc...)
What can I say I am a selfish SOB.
I am not nice to the other people in my life either.
I am a control freak.
I can hold a grudge forever.
I don't care what other people are doing (or about their lives)
I have done so many bad things
Wow when I write this out I think holy cow! Scares me a little.
Some of my favorites were/are:
"What's past is prologue" (ie, let's not talk about the cold, hard facts that led us to where we are. Evidence that our failed marriage was caused bythese specific actions proves nothing)
"You evoked that from me" (when I yelled at you, verbally abused you, reacted in a way that was disrespectful and cruel...sure, I acknowledge that what I said was wrong, but it was still your fault)
My newest favorite: "There are three sides to every story" (just because your side has merit, and my side shows specific examples and continued N behavior, that doesn't mean there isn't a THIRD side where the reality in my head is how I want others to view me)
And yes, "everyone makes mistakes"...but not everyone empties their kids' college funds, racks up hidden debt, almost loses our home to foreclosure, and continues to buy himself thousand dollar watches, guitars, neiman's shopping sprees, etc, AND LIES ABOUT IT ALL.
when i would ask why he done what he done, . why do you listen to people they are only jealous of our freindship. yeah right. and yes all his ff had nicknames[including me i have since found out] they just didnt know it. until one of them decided to tell me his name for me, so i told her his name for her. she was so shocked, i wasent, cos if he was naming all them insultingly, why wouldnt he be doing it to me. i knew this toerag so well by then.
"Ive always been told Im of Genius Level, ever since childhood"
Really? Hummm? thats funny than why cant you even spell "Morning" as in Good Morning????? Its not "Mouring" that's something I did every day i was with your ass!!!!
only one way to go...Forward (tm?)
I am not a bad person (or, I'm a good man)
Sex is just sex (or, sex and love are totally different)
And versions of women being controlling whores, him being better than most people or bored by most people, the fact that nothing interesting would happen if it weren't for him.
I was just realizing last night how much he embarrassed me over the years by the things he'd say. He also would try to fit in with any group. Like if he were hanging out with gay men he wanted them to know that he was oh-so-cool about it and knew all about the culture. Whatever!
the times i heard this from n and nwf, all the time i am a realy good person i am a realy good person, i ended up saying to both. I THINK ONE DOTH PROTEST TO MUCH. if someone is good , they are told that by people, they dont have to keep telling the world how good they are. cos what they are saying is i am rotten and thats the truth of it.
He would do something terrible to me, I would leave and then when he wanted to hoover me back in and his first text would always be 'I still love you'. Weird cos sometimes we would only be out of touch for a day or 2.
The 'I am not a bad person' came in my 2nd text a week after he pinned me to the bed and punched me full force in the face.....erm he didnt mean to hurt me apparently, seems I must have bruised his knuckles by accidentally putting my face in the way of his fist, how awful of me to do such a thing to this GOOD person eh?
My favourite and this is no joke...
' me, me, me'- Before i knew he was a N we used to 'joke' about when i used to say '(name) why do you always go on about yourself?' his reply was 'It's always about me, me, me' and i used to laugh!
'do you think i look ok?'-constantly in the mirror (even my child mentioned this to him)
'Is my hair cut ok?'- take what i got when i mentioned on one occassion that the barber had missed a bit. Rage, rage and more rage not just at me but went back to the barber and raged at him aswell.
'do you think i am obssesed?'- Yes with yourself.:)
'look at the state of you'
'Why don't they look at me'- oh please....
'you don't love me'
'do yu think i have got bigger'- yes you do look like you have put on weight- take what i got!
'you can not go out looking like that with me'
'your hair needs washing'
'you smell'
There are many more. After i have typed this it has been made more clear to me what a Ass**** he is. Thanks....
another-
'women always do it' what N ? 'they always come back'. OMG!
I am getting so many flashbacks. I am new to this forum, i was terrified to comment on any posts but i am so glad that i have. It has somehow been very liberating (if this makes sense?) This has made me feel so much better. Thankyou allx
n said to me too, as well they all come back, , who, said i WOMEN, said he, i said no dear you are the one who always go back! and then he said i dont let anyone go. i love a contridiction, as he said one thing and ment another, i said i didnt come back, you stalked me for over a year, thats why i am here to shut you up, people keep saying look pyscotic when you are looking for me narc. i went back with him for one reason and only one reason to D/D him. and i did it royally 11mnths ago, and i will never go back, he can try every trick in the book and has, i will never go back. they are the one,s that go back.
You go girl! lol. I was still shocked when he said it though. This was after he threw me in the rubbish heap by the way. I wish i knew then what i know now.
"I love you but I don't know if I love you enough"
"Part of me will always hope we can get back together some day" This was just after he had told me about his new girlfriend
Blah blah, yeah yeah all empty words
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"The deeper that sadness carves into your being, the more joy you can contain." ~ Kahlil Gibran
"That which we do not confront in ourselves we meet as fate" ~ Carl Jung
http://www.storyofmylife.com/KLARITY4
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"The deeper that sadness carves into your being, the more joy you can contain." ~ Kahlil Gibran
"That which we do not confront in ourselves we meet as fate" ~ Carl Jung
I know I am a good man.
I am not gay.
the truth has never been good to me.
I just want to find someone who will love me as much as I love you.
I only lie to other people. I never lie to you.
You just don't get it. None of these other people mean anything to me.
I promise (with tears in his eyes) I will never hurt you again.
You are not God.
You are bipolar.
You always have to be in control.
You don't love your children.
A particular favorite one of late: You will marry me when you grow up.
Oh, the list could go on and on.
almostlydia
i had this crap , what had he forgotton how many of his ex,s had called the police on him, and got courts orders against him, they live to "fight" its the only emotion they have. they cant even be men and admit that! he said he had met a woman and how nice it was to be with her as there was no arguing or fighting, i said i know what you mean i feel like that when i am with name, a male friend, oh dear he wasent pleased, b/c by him saying that i was suppose to think it was me causing the fights, pure projection but from such an amatuer. lol
thats interesting
Unconditional love IS
Unconditional love is unhealthy
unconditional love
What he really probably
well known phrases
"I can hold a grudge forever."
Some of my favorites
OMG I love it!!! Three sides
only one way to go...Forward (tm?)
to add to list[lol
ALL OF THEM. And the list
only one way to go...Forward (tm?)
"Ive always been told Im of
only one way to go...Forward (tm?)
LOL!
Two are really familiar:
"I am not a liar."
"I am not a bad person"
Heard that all the time. It
only one way to go...Forward (tm?)
i am not a bad person
I still love you
These are great!
Only words...
Oh yes
coming back
coming back
Happynow,
Phrases
Narc talk
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"The deeper that sadness carves into your being, the more joy you can contain." ~ Kahlil Gibran
"That which we do not confront in ourselves we meet as fate" ~ Carl Jung
http://www.storyofmylife.com/KLARITY4
I know I am a good man. I am
almostlydia
Here's one I heard a lot
Believe in yourself!
Terri
fighting