SHIT!!!!!! I was doing so well, I need help! NOW
SHIT!!!!!! I was doing so well, I need help! NOW
Why did I look in my trash!!!! Why why why! I saw an email from him, that is delivered right into my trash. And I looked into it and I wish I would have never seen what I have seen.
I deleted it after reading it, so I can not post it here, but the words wont leave my mind, I thought I could just forget, I hope I can get everything together.
He apologized for the last year, how he treated me, that he was never clear with me what was going on in his life, and that he kept me on a hold.
That he wants to change his relationship patterns, being always absent with his mind, always one food out of the door, and his passive aggressive behaviour.
That he wants to take a different step now, he wants to be there for me and seeing what I could really be for him. He suggested that we could skype every two days to get to know each other better, and that he doesnt want to loose me, and that he wants to see me again, he wants to take it slowely, without any sex. He wants it to develop organically, and if I have fear taking advantage of, he will show me consistent behaviour, if I could trust him and stop being so pressures as I used to be.
He said he makes therapy and all those stuff, keeps yoga, stopped smoking, and stopped all his sex texting with other women.
That he wants it to be different this time.
Gosh, I wish I could delete all the doubt within me now, now I am doubting again that he is a narc. Please put some perspective within me. I never got more than an one liner from him. I was doing so fucking well without him already. Its now feeling like all my dreams have become true. And I am shaking with anxiety.
jen79, i'm so glad i read
Just wanted to say that I
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